Why live? What is the meaning of life? Life is full of disappointments. It can be happy and filled with joy but mine seems to be more disappointing and sad rather than happy and joyous. Maybe it's my cognition, I'm pretty cynical... Is it the world's or my problem that I feel the way I do. I can't control how the world works and I don't think I can control my feelings either. If everything is out of my control then what do I do? My problems might seem petty and insignificant compared to many other problems in the world, but there's this one problem that is bigger than the world. I would give anything to get a satisfying solution to it right now. The stress is killing me. 

Haven't been doing much lately. Just waking up in the middle of the day and poking around the internet and rock climbing. I'm trying to do something productive with my free time so I'm learning about things that interest me online. I think online learning is great. I can definitely see the future of schools being online because it has so much potential. A good professor would not be limited by a classroom size but be open to an infinite number of audience. I also like being able to learn at my own pace. I recently came across a quote while studying the brain, "We live in a paradoxical world, we pursue happiness... and it leads to : resentment, unhappiness, and an explosion of mental illness. After giving it some thought, I find this very true... but does that mean if I give up my pursuit for happiness result in happiness?

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